23.9.19

Hi what's up guys....

It's been awhile since my last post, right??? Arghhh I miss writing here so much 😘

For your information, I finally completed my degree!!!! Oh yeahhhhh!!! 

Sebenarnya tak happy sangat pun. Bila dah habis study ni kan... rasa rindu sangat nak belajar balik. Mengada kan??? Masa study dulu sibuk nak habis cepat. Sekarang dah kerja, nak belajar balik pulak hahaha. But, its true. Actually, bukanlah rindu nak study pergi kelas hari-hari tu. Lebih pada rindu environment masa study...lepak dengan kawan...that struggle to finish up projects, assignments dengan team members. I'm kinda miss that. Bila dah kerja ni, its totally different. Kalau dulu masa belajar ada buat silap masih boleh dimaafkan because students allow to make mistakes. Tapi, bila dah kerja... kau tak boleh buat silap. It will effect your unit and eventually will effect your company. You don't want that, do you??? So, no more berangan & lalai ni. Its scary. Every single day kat tempat kerja, aku selalu ingatkan diri sendiri: Buat betul-betul. Jangan silap. Kalau tak tau, tanya. Jangan senyap. I keep reminding myself that. Sometimes, bila ada something yang aku tak boleh buat...i will stressed myself out and mulalah carut kat diri sendiri 😂 itu memang biasa. Aku tak suka carutkan orang, tapi suka carutkan diri sendiri hahaha. Sebab kadang-kadang rasa bodoh pun ada jugak bila benda simple pun tak boleh nak settle. Stress tau. Well, aku memang suka stresskan diri sendiri pun. Hahahaha. Bila kita stress ni sebenarnya...kita akan push ourselves to be better tau. It works for me everytime 😂

Kali ni masuk sana balik, dia punya feeling tu totally different. Kalau dulu rasa semangat nak bersiap lawa-lawa pergi kerja. Now, nak bersiap tu pun rasa ya Allah malasnyaaaa.... 😂 Kalau boleh rasa tak nak pakai apa-apa kat muka, biar bare face gitu je...terus keluar pergi kerja. Malas gila! Nothing excites me anymore...or maybe i just realized that i need to focus on myself more rather than thinking about someone/something else. Benda-benda tak penting tolak tepi dulu. Sometimes in life...when you think you like something/someone... it may be not good for you. Allah tau apa yang kita tak tau. So, right now...i just leave everything to Allah... Biar DIA buat kerja DIA. Aku kat atas muka bumi ni...just give my very best and tawakal sepenuh hati. Jika sesuatu tu baik untuk kita, insyaAllah Allah akan permudahkan. Jika sebaliknya, aku harap Allah jauhkan aku daripadanya 😊